[ Jamie's jaw tightens for a moment, the question one he hadn't expected. He doesn't think about either of those things deeply if he can help it. ]

Nothing gave me peace after Culloden, Sassenach. I was glad, perhaps, that Randall was gone to join the Devil himself, but for years I didna feel anythin' other than anger that I couldna die.

[ It's the truth, terrible as it is. ]