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Then not from you, either.
[She can feel the guilt radiating off him.]
We can't change what happened, but we can make sure that she has an easy a time as possible, going forward. I think she'll feel better once we're back in Olympia.
[She can feel the guilt radiating off him.]
We can't change what happened, but we can make sure that she has an easy a time as possible, going forward. I think she'll feel better once we're back in Olympia.
[ Yeah, well. He won't apologize anymore but that doesn't mean the guilt has gone. ]
To be in the home ye've created for her, in her own bed, aye. I'm sure it will do her good.
[ And it would be good, too, to be able to hold his wife the way he'd like when not restricted by such a small bed. ]
To be in the home ye've created for her, in her own bed, aye. I'm sure it will do her good.
[ And it would be good, too, to be able to hold his wife the way he'd like when not restricted by such a small bed. ]
[Claire's thinking along the same lines.]
I don't think I'm going to be able to sleep.
I don't think I'm going to be able to sleep.
Try. For me, Claire. For Brianna.
[ He strokes her hair softly. ]
I'll be here. Watchin' over ye both.
[ He strokes her hair softly. ]
I'll be here. Watchin' over ye both.
We can both watch over her.
[She'd urge him to sleep, but. He just woke up.]
[She'd urge him to sleep, but. He just woke up.]
[ Christ, his wife is stubborn. But tonight at least, he won't say anything about it.
Bree definitely gets it from her though, so. ]
Then we will.
[ But he keeps stroking her hair. ]
Bree definitely gets it from her though, so. ]
Then we will.
[ But he keeps stroking her hair. ]
I love you both.
[She has the two most important people in her world with her, in this bed. She only wishes they weren't all hurting so much.]
[She has the two most important people in her world with her, in this bed. She only wishes they weren't all hurting so much.]
I love you more than my heart can take. Both of you.
[ His voice breaks, just a little, his hold tightening a bit. ]
[ His voice breaks, just a little, his hold tightening a bit. ]
I know. I think she knows, too.
[She reaches over their daughter to touch his face, fingers stroking his cheek.]
It's all right, Jamie. We'll be all right.
[She reaches over their daughter to touch his face, fingers stroking his cheek.]
It's all right, Jamie. We'll be all right.
Aye.
[ He turns his head just enough that his lips touch her fingertips. ]
The three of us.
[ As it should have always been. ]
[ He turns his head just enough that his lips touch her fingertips. ]
The three of us.
[ As it should have always been. ]
I'm glad you're here. I don't know if I'd be able to do this alone.
[She would. She'd manage. But some part of her is put at ease knowing that Jamie is here to lean on and help not only her, but Bree now, too.]
[She would. She'd manage. But some part of her is put at ease knowing that Jamie is here to lean on and help not only her, but Bree now, too.]
Christ, I wouldna ever want you to go through this alone, Claire. I'm here. And I willna go anywhere and leave ye again, either.
[ He'll fight the Almighty itself or whatever it is that he has to do in order to stay. ]
[ He'll fight the Almighty itself or whatever it is that he has to do in order to stay. ]
When we get to Olympia, you should take her out. We have horses. I think the two of you could use some time alone together.
[To talk, or not talk. Or simply get used to one another.]
[To talk, or not talk. Or simply get used to one another.]
Do ye think she'll want to?
[ He asks that quietly, eyes on Claire's face, unsure, apparently. ]
[ He asks that quietly, eyes on Claire's face, unsure, apparently. ]
She might. I wasn't sure if she'd want to share a bed with us, but...
[Well. Here they are.]
[Well. Here they are.]
Aye.
[ He whispers it softly, stroking Claire's cheek tenderly over their daughter. ]
To ken I have the opportunity now...Christ, to ken she was coming to us before...
[ Jamie swallows hard, lips pressing to the back of Bree's head. ]
[ He whispers it softly, stroking Claire's cheek tenderly over their daughter. ]
To ken I have the opportunity now...Christ, to ken she was coming to us before...
[ Jamie swallows hard, lips pressing to the back of Bree's head. ]
Maybe it's a good thing the world ended.
[Better to be here than die in a fire, right?]
[Better to be here than die in a fire, right?]
I dinnae care what had to happen for us to be together.
[ And he means it. ]
[ And he means it. ]
Neither do I.
[She strokes Bree's hair, light enough as to not wake her.]
If she came to us, she couldn't stay. We'd have to send her back.
[She strokes Bree's hair, light enough as to not wake her.]
If she came to us, she couldn't stay. We'd have to send her back.
It would have broken my heart, ye ken? To know her, only to have to say goodbye to her.
[ He can't imagine it now, it's too painful. ]
[ He can't imagine it now, it's too painful. ]
I don't know how we could let her go. Or me, let her stay. At least... it's nothing to worry about here.
[They just have a different set of problems.]
[They just have a different set of problems.]
We'll see her through this, you and I, Sassenach.
[ For a moment there's nothing but the quiet of Brianna sleeping, but Jamie knows Claire isn't asleep, so he speaks again, softly. ]
When I imagined holding her in my arms, Claire, it wasna because she was so broken.
[ For a moment there's nothing but the quiet of Brianna sleeping, but Jamie knows Claire isn't asleep, so he speaks again, softly. ]
When I imagined holding her in my arms, Claire, it wasna because she was so broken.
I never told her about what happened to you. In Wentworth. [The words are said in a more quiet whisper, not for worry of Bree waking, but out of respect to him.] She knows you were injured. That's all. It was never my story to tell.
[The unsaid hangs in the air: If you feel like sharing it with her, letting her know how deeply you understand, then that's your decision.]
[The unsaid hangs in the air: If you feel like sharing it with her, letting her know how deeply you understand, then that's your decision.]
[ Jamie's quiet again, for a while, swallowing back tears of rage and grief. ]
First our son. Now our daughter. I cannae...I would do anythin', Claire, to take away the pain I know is so...
[ He trails off.
He realizes, if he sleeps now, he may not be without his own nightmares. ]
It takes a piece of every part of you.
[ Naked. Behind a blade of grass. ]
First our son. Now our daughter. I cannae...I would do anythin', Claire, to take away the pain I know is so...
[ He trails off.
He realizes, if he sleeps now, he may not be without his own nightmares. ]
It takes a piece of every part of you.
[ Naked. Behind a blade of grass. ]
[In the silence, she reaches out to comb her fingers through his hair, just as she's been doing for Bree.]
You understand. You know what it is to... survive it. To not let the monster win.
You understand. You know what it is to... survive it. To not let the monster win.
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